vendredi, mars 18, 2005
reality check
when my sister kz left us and went to manila, i thought it wasn't a really big deal. she's there for college naman eh. when my parents went to the states, it kinda broke my heart, but i learned to be more independent (and i deserve a gift! hehe! =b). but this afternoon, as my sister was walking down the aisle to get her award with a capital S, reality bit me and i came to realize that after two months, i'll be living my life like i'm in college. you know, budgeting the money on your own, paying for your finances and being the only one to go to school and get home from school. before, my sister cheenee (who just graduated this afternoon) pays for the fare, gives me my baon and wakes me up. but if she's gone, does that mean i'll always be late from then on?? oh my goodness! but it's ok. i won the tv, i won the computer, i WILL have a digicam (right mom?=b), and hopefully have my own car! hahaha!
seeing them crying (and others fooling around and acting sarcastic) touched my heart. ate chee once said to me that when she was in her second year, she thought her graduation was so far pa since there's still two years. but then when her graduation came, she told me that time is so fast and that i have to make the most of it so as not to waste my high school life. in short, live life to the fullest. who knows? someone may get an accident or may die (i hope not!) and then you just wished you should have been good to him/her all along. that's so sad. i don't want that to happen to me! i don't wanna waste my time. but honestly, i am. hehehe. i dunno, it's just, i feel like i'm not an achiever (not like my other sisters). i told you before i had no dream. maybe working at candy will do but then i'm still not satisfied with that. maybe there's this stage in your highschool life where your really confused on what you're going to do in the future. where your mind spins like hell just because of thinking what would happen in the future. will i have the opportunity to work at candy? or will i just act like my aunts and ask money from my sisters?? of course, i wanna have my life, where i can spend money which really came from hardwork. i can go shopping knowing that when you shop, it's worth it, it's ok because you deserve something from working really hard on your job. parang you can rely na on yourself because you have a job, you have your own money or maybe own a condo. but think again, it's not that easy.
i guess i need to have a change. not physically (well, maybe a little because i'm getting fat!). change of habit, i mean. like really studying hard, aim high and reach my goals. others might think that working in a magazine would do me no good. but who cares? i like the job and it's fun! i don't care if malaki ang seldo o hindi naman masyado. would you sacrifice your interests on something you DON'T wanna do? to make it more clear, WOULD YOU STUDY NURSING IN COLLEGE WHEN YOU'D RATHER HAVE ENGINEERING JUST BECAUSE YOUR PARENTS TOLD YOU SO? you still won't succeed if you didn't like what you are doing. there's got to be something in that course that will inspire you to finish college and make you happy. c'mon! speak up! everyone has the right to speak. it's not bad to try talk to your parents. ok, it might be THAT hard. so here's a simple tip, give them a book called "rich dad, poor dad" and they will understand you. trust me.=) if it won't work, then try your convincing powers, everyone's got one. =)
let's go back to the graduation, i was assigned as the "OFFICIAL PHOTOGRAPHER" of the yearbook. i got to take pictures of the parents, staff, teachers, and especially the students. even without a tag, i can go in or out the covered courts. that's nice. it's tiring being a photographer since you really have to stand all the while. and it was so kainis coz we couldnt get inside the line and i had to take pics from outside the line. meaning i had to zoom it. mawawala ang pagkaganda ng resolution. pangit pa yung lighting. AND IT WAS SOOO HOT!
during the citation of the graduates, which was so long because they have to say the graduate's name ONE BY ONE! so i went out and while i was talking to Candz, i saw someone (from the back) who had curly, short hair, wore heels, and looks exactly like ma'am dar. but guess what?? SHE WAS MA'AM DAR! she was sooo funny, but so formal. she wore black blouse and skirt (also black), black sandals "and to match her outfit" wore orange-and-red colored accessories. hehehe!=) she told me the magazine i just made for her was ludicrous! hehehe! at first she thought it i would say sorry and thank you and all. but when she saw herself on a magazine--she was laughing really hard! she showed it to her friends and they were like laughing out really loud! for me, it ws definitely cute! she was gorgeous there! honest! =b
and know what? she told me when she's in dubai already, she would send me chocolates. she even asked me what i wanted! well, i kinda told her i love books. i guess i've got to put the conversation below:
dardar: i'll really send you chocolates!
me: thanks mam! you're so great!
dardar: what else do you want?
me: ayaw na mam uy..
dardar: no, it's ok...c'mon..what?
me: hmmm...books..mysteries and all..
dardar: like dan brown's?
me: yah! i so like dan brown! mikki even reads it and when he returns the book after a year, mura na ug gikan sa garage sale!
dardar: *laughing* really? which authors do you like?
me: *thinking* hmm...paulo coelho!
dardar: really? what books have you not read?
me: valkyries and fifth mountain
dardar: ok, don't buy those books ha? i'm gonna give you those.
me: *my eyes popped out!* really mam dar??? thanks!!! =)
dardar: it's ok! what i really like was his book by the river piedra..
me: that was my favorite, too! i nearly cried!
dardar: i REALLY cried! bisan dili ko ka-relate! =)
me: have you read eleven minutes?
dardar: yah..=)
me: when i read the first 33 pages of that book, i was like OMG. and then my sister saw me and grabbed the book away from me! and i asked her for the second time and she told me it was okay. but it's got really yucky parts there like what she was doing at the age of fifteen!
dardar: really? she grabbed the book? know what? no one is too young to read anything.
me: i know. =)
and then, i had to go coz the citation is almost over and i have to take pictures! I LOVE YOU MA'AM DAR! PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU A COVER GIRL FOR THE NEXT ISSUE! HAHAHA! =D
chocks away! =)
yayam parked her beetle at 9:14 PM
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