mardi, juin 07, 2005
sad..happy...
im tired of crying. i just broke down. i felt so numb. can't walk, can't talk. all i wanna do is go back to my sisters. before, i cried and then they were always there to comfort me and now, i cry and i'm alone. no one's there to calm me down. no one's there to tell me to stop crying. problem seems to tail me everywhere i go. just when i thought manila was a good place for me to rest, problem was still around. and now that i finally came back, i thought everything will be alright. everything WAS for a day or three. and then there was school. sure meeting my friends again was fun but there were other things i have to think of. my life's so complicated. even before. i wish i could just live simply and started being a total dork and then excelled later. not the other way around. because if i were a dork at the beginning, people wouldn't have been expecting so MUCH of me. now all the people think i'm superman; that i can do everything and follow every little thing they say. i can't. i am an independent worker and i can do things myself but that doesn't mean i have to do everything. they told me to ran for the sc, and i did. only 50% of me that time was sure to do it. i did it because they thought it would be a good idea and i would have more chances of being in the top 10. and then the next thing i knew, i won. if it wouldn't have been for the sc, which i was already committed to since last school-year, i could have breath a little. i don't know what came into my mind and decided to do it. it's not that i don't wanna serve. being a class officer requires hard work, what more if i joined the higher student council body. and to think that i even bragged about it when i won! oh my... well, it seems that i have to continue what i have started and not just leave it alone.
i'm just a normal kid. i still have so many things to learn in life. and only two years from now, i'm in college. two years is short. so please just let me think about my future while i'm still in high school. i wanna make decisions on my own. because i don't wanna feel like handcuffed forever.
but anyway, there are always magazines to make you smile. teehee! i took a look at the new magazine i bought, "
ym's your prom." i bought it for only 75 pesos and it's even the newest edition! nice and elegant dresses got me excited of what i'm gonna see during the next pages. and right now, i think i have an idea of my prom, which i'm not sure it's gonna take place... but whatever! i'm sure it will!
what's up this june?8- ID picture taking. smile!
10- first friday mass. say hello to gailas again...
12- independence day
17- judgement day at jack tv, which i would be missing because of the...
17- class retreat at malasag after the holy spirit mass. this one is special because we're the first one to have the retreat (that early?) and if the school doesn't like the retreat house there, the preceding classes will be having their retreats at manresa! haha! and our first class outing is gonna take place after the retreat, at mapawa! i've been there a lotta times but that's fun!
17- club registration at the covered courts also after the holy spirit mass. too bad for my classmates they can't sign up... hihihi! my schedule is fully booked so i no longer need another club.
19- jerik's bday!
27- chicang's bday!
PLUGSqueer eye for the straight guy's
fab five is coming here in the Philippines!!! watch out for them this saturday, june 11 at greenbelt 3, 10 am!
NEWSpistons won over heat with a 6-point lead!
schedules for the finals have been posted at
nba.comGame 1: Thurs, June 9 Detroit at San Antonio 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 2: Sun, June 12 Detroit at San Antonio 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 3: Tues, June 14 San Antonio at Detroit 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 4: Thurs, June 16 San Antonio at Detroit 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 5*: Sun, June 19 San Antonio at Detroit 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 6*: Tues, June 21 Detroit at San Antonio 9 p.m. ET, ABC
Game 7*: Thurs, June 23 Detroit at San Antonio 9 p.m. ET, ABC
yayam parked her beetle at 6:59 PM
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