right now, someone at the far side of the world may have won one million dollars. right now, a guy and a girl might be celebrating for the birth of their new baby. right now, a teenager might be jumpin up and down for joy because her long time crush might have invited her out. but right now, i still feel like im the happiest woman on earth.

i once had a very close friend in first year. we talk, we laugh, we share secrets and we were so close that we would always go to the canteen during recess time and he would ALWAYS libre me. he's an average guy with a very bright mind. im always comfortable with him. he's like a brother to me. (not to mention his siblings and my siblings were very close friends)


it went on during the second year. but i was busier since i was elected the class president. we became seatmates and we talked more often. maybe i was too busy to even notice that we were drifting apart. he exchanged seats with my other friend and that was the time when i felt like losing him or something. it felt like the closeness we had was fading away. and then it finally came into my mind the very thing that made me absolutely dumbstruck, the very thing that made me a fool.

days passed and we were still good friends in good terms. but it was sort of different. i wasn't as comfortable talking to him as before. and it seems like he felt the same way, too. it was awkward even to look at him.

to my oblivion, i insulted him without realizing i did. not directly like a slap in the face, but i did. and i didn't know he would take it too seriously. we haven't been talking for weeks and i felt like tha gap was getting immense. we only talk when we had to and those sort of conversations weren't "talks" at all. it was merely "lagi" [oo nga] or "ok." it wasn't until few of my friends came to notice that we weren't speaking to each other. what else would i say? "la man mi nag-away" [di naman kami nag-away eh].

it was true. we haven't argued about anything at all. it was a little misunderstanding.

if it wasn't for my friend who urged me to chat with him, we wouldn't straightened things out because he wasn't talking to me and i'm not into making the first move. i owe him a lot. if you're reading this post, thanks. you ate the gap that sandwiched between us.

after that little chat, i was smiling to myself with reasons definitely not unknown. i was smiling to myself because he wasn't mad at me. i was smiling to myself because that little chat erased the doubts, uncertainty and question marks in my head. and made my day complete.