watching harry potter alyways brings us satisfaction. even if it means going home late at night. even if it means using your allowance. well, i was satisfied, for sure. but this is no time for me to feel even a tiny speck of joy. i want to smile, but i can't. even if christmas is coming. even if my crush will invite me to the prom. *which i know wont happen even after a thousand years*


eddie just died and to add more misery, my mom just got hospitalized because she has hole in her heart and she has to be operated. yes, in the very private part of our body - the heart - where we put all our emotions except anger; where all our happiness come from. i just wish i could visit her there. please pray for her. i dont want my christmas *and the following events* to be in deep agony.


but im not keeping you from watching harry potter. do watch. it's good. =)